Father’s Day

Today, I’m missing my dad, lots. Yesterday, I got the chance to talk to him on the phone before he and my mom headed to my sister’s house for dinner. Even though it was great to talk to him on the phone, I really wished we could have been sitting in person at the dinner table debating about the latest in politics, discussing his upcoming backpacking trips, or just talking about nothing at all. Living far enough away from my family that regular weekend visits are not easy, I get homesick–maybe more than a 33-year-old should. I long for the days when we can just get together for no reason at all.

On this day after Father’s Day, I wanted…no, needed, to stop for a moment to thank my dad for everything he’s ever done for me. For the way that he lives his life–the example he has set for me, and countless others. For giving so much. For loving so much. For teaching me that I can, and should be the one and only ME. Unless, of course, I decide to create an alter-ego/stage personality, and then it’s okay to be somebody else for the evening…

(My Dad, as “Frankie Wayne” lounge-lizard extraordinaire!)

I love you SO MUCH, dad!

{ ♥ ♥ ♥ }

Kathryn

A space for calm

Apparently, I work best when there’s just enough work that it must get done now, but not so much that the stress of it all paralyzes me. Or, maybe I just work well when I learn to practice that oh-so-elusive act: balancing. In fact, I know this to be true.

For me, balance looks like this: plenty of time off away from my computer, from social media, from things related to “work”. It’s starting my day sitting in silence. It’s the practice of breathing and smiling and being aware of that. It’s lots of naps under the tree. It’s planning meals, preparing them, and enjoying them with James, friends, family (and preferably all three at the same time). It’s creating a beautiful home, filled with memories and the right amount of “things” that don’t represent material wealth, but experiential wealth. It’s making time for me (weather that’s to work out, get my hair did, to read a book, or even finding the perfect new pair of shoes) and feeling great that I did so!

I’m in that space today. Tons of emails have been sent, plans made, house cleaned, meals prepped. This is the space I strive to live in. Free from distractions, free from comparison, free to live in my own head and simultaneously connected to the people that matter the most to me. Summer is almost here, and man it feels good to live in this space for a while…The trick is…when there’s more work than time, when the house isn’t just so, when I get an email that throws me for a loop–those are the times where I must MAKE time to get into this space. To make life, this very present moment, feel GREAT! To create that space for peace and calm and breathing and smiling!

Do you have advice for me on this? How do you get into that space?

{♥ ♥ ♥}

Kathryn

 

A Happy Birthday

Just Around the House, Early in the Morning

Though I have been scorned for it,
let me never be afraid to use the word beautiful.
For within is the shining leaf
and the blossoms of the geranium at the window.
And the eyes of the happy puppy as he wakes.
The colors of the old and beloved afghan lying
by itself, on the couch, in the morning sun.
The hummingbird’s nest perched now in a
corner of the bookshelf, in front of so many
books of so many colors.
The two poached eggs. The buttered toast.
The ream of brand-new paper just opened,
white as a block of snow.
The typewriter humming, ready to go.

Mary Oliver
from Swan, 2010

(a birthday poem, to herself…and now, to me!)

{♥ ♥ ♥}

Kathryn

ReSTARt wrap up on CreativeLive

Wednesday was the wrap up of Jasmine Star’s ReSTARt on CreativeLive and I was again there in the audience! It was a great couple of days hanging out with some amazing people, learning and spending some quality time in Seattle! The other audience members are dedicated professional photographers and the sweetest people out there! I am so grateful for them.

 

And, seriously so thankful to J* and the CreativeLive crew for working so hard to put together a fantastic show!!! I took mad notes, but I also went a little crazy with my Vines…so, I thought I’d share these silly videos with you here…

If you’re on Vine, let me know and I will follow you! I am @atlasandelia

 

 

 

 

 

{♥♥♥}
Kathryn

Here’s to the Dreamers…

 

Oh yeah, this video has probably been seen by all y’all out there, but I just saw it again for the first time. And this time, Steve Jobs isn’t talking about everyone else. He’s talking about me. He’s talking about you…if you let him. Have you ever thought of yourself as an “Amelia Earhart”? A Ghandi? A Steve Jobs? No? Why not?

I know for myself, I’ve always put people in categories, and ranked them. This is what we do, evolutionarily, to keep ourselves safe, but what it has done for me is put me in a teeny tiny box that has essentially immobilized me my entire life.

When I watch this video now, I see people who DARED to dream, then DARED to do. Thus far, I have dared to dream…I let myself live there, but I never let myself live in a place where DOING was a reality. Why? Well, the usual suspects, of course, fear, doubt, laziness ruled my mind. They kept me in my place. “You’re just not smart enough, Kathryn, to learn about things like that, so why pick up that book…” “You’re just the type of person who will never really thrive at any one thing…you’re a Jack-of-all-trades, master of none.” … “With success comes too much responsibility and you’re not very responsible”. These are seriously the things that travel through my head on a regular basis. The mantras I’ve told myself for years. I didn’t intentionally try to sabotage myself. I just didn’t realize how much these thoughts had a grip on my entire way of being!

I’ve begun to realize that, I too, am a big dreamer…I am a round peg…and at one time I was trying to fit into that square hole. Now though, I’m not seeking to fit in at all…I’m seeking to be whatever shape I take next, sharing my talents, expanding them in all directions and DARING to DO the BIG things I find meaningful and fascinating along the way!

Speaking of dreamers though…here’s to my favorite among them…

{♥♥♥}

Kathryn

#thegram

We’re on Instagram…what are you on? I will follow you, if you follow me…deal?

http://instagram.com/atlasandelia/

 

{♥♥♥}

Kathryn

What IF… we went to the Dominican Republic?!!

Soooo…exciting news… I’m going to be heading to the Dominican Republic for the entire week for the What IF Conference!!! !!! (Just had to add those extra exclamation marks for good measure!)

If you’ve been reading my blog, you’ll know that winning a seat the the What IF Conference in Portland last July was nothing short of life-changing for me…sooooo, I decided I HAD to attend the next one! Just like last time, I am nervous for it because I don’t know what to expect. I mean, I know it will make me dig deep and really think BIG about business and life…I KNOW this to be true…but to see what will come of that is what I’m nervous for. After I went to Portland last July, I was deeply affected by the speakers, the organizers (Jen and Steve Bebb), the attendees…they created a space where I could push my mind to think beyond just being a creative…and toward a life that is more focused, productive, balanced, free!

Most importantly, I came away with a better understanding of myself. I realized the ways I was sabotaging myself and my work. These past six months since that conference, I’ve failed, I’ve tried again. I’ve learned, I’ve regressed. I’ve been dedicated. I’ve been over-bearing. I’ve been quiet. I’ve been inward. I’ve been bold. I’ve reached and shrunk, then stretched and been moved. It has made me realize that life is one big, long growing experience…if you let it be so.

(below are some photos from the previous What If)

(This guy was not an attendee..but a member of a band that played at our hotel, The Jupiter)

(Tim Fair playing some pool with somma the guyzz)

(Jim Cool of SheHeWe Photography)

(Mary of Justin & Mary)

The Group, out and about shooting Richelle and Eric! (Who, btw, are now engaged!)

(Shooting in front of a strip club in Portland…not that weird for this group…or Portland)

(Marsais of Marsais Photographie!!

(Susannah of Unveil By Alumbra!)

(Shooting on the backside of a billboard on Burnside…whatevs)

 (Fer!!! Teaching us his skills!)

(This is Fer Juaristi, aka “The Mexican Monkey” aka “The Magic Maker”)

(Fer taught us many things, including the term “visbons” #visbons…look it up)

(Here’s some visbons for you!)

Anne Sage (The City Sage) and Caroline (of Woodnote Photography), Richelle and Eric!

(Steve Bebb, telling a story you’ll never forget…or possibly just giving directions.)

(The Joel and Mary, Mary and The Joel, giving the impromptu presentation of their life!!!)

(I’m certainly not done stretching, not done reaching, not done growing…so next week I am putting out my branches once again…toward the sun light…but maybe more importantly digging my roots, yet again, into the soil…drinking deep, preparing again, for another year of reaching new heights.

I will be away from all work, including this blog, but be sure I will be back the following week…refreshed and renewed…ready to breathe in all that life has to offer!!!

{♥♥♥}
Kathryn

Tuesday | ToDoDay | Taxes

Today? Today, I have to get started on my TAXES!!! Just writing the word gives me heart palpitations! Oh goodness me, when it comes to this part of my business, I am DIS.OR.GAN.IZED! So, really, today I start taking my scraps of paper and online records to a bookkeeper who will start me on the right path to start my taxes.

So, because I am getting all queasy having to think about money and (if you’re at all like me) would like a small distraction from reality…here’s a HILARIOUS video that a friend shared on Facebook yesterday… seriously, this kid is too cute and (almost) made me forget about icky business-y stuff for a moment!

“Not cool, Robert Frost!!”

{♥♥♥}

Kathryn

The happiness list…

Today, I laid on the floor (something that makes me happy) and I wrote and wrote and wrote. The heading at the top of the page: “What Makes Me Happy”.

Nothing on this list is extravagant. Everything on this list is within reach, on a regular basis. These are things, or people or actions I choose to include or exclude from my life. These little things truly are what make up life and contribute to my happiness…

What’s on your happiness list?

{♥♥♥}

Kathryn

 

Let Go.

Let go of fear.

Let go of anger.

Let go of ego.

Let go.

Let go of pain.

Let go of jealousy.

Let go of consuming.

Let go.

Let go of power.

Let go of me vs. you.

Let go of want.

Let go.

Let go of sickness

of emptiness.

of holding it in…

Let go let go let go…

{♥♥♥}

Kathryn